When white looks black, Part 1

Sometimes, God’s best for me comes wrapped in a package that I don’t want to open. 
Sometimes, I forget just how fully God can be trusted and I look for another way. 
Sometimes, I want to know “Why?” more than I want to know God.

How many times have I said, “No, thank you!” to a deeper, more satisfying love of God because I didn’t want to risk a lesser thing?  

For example, I don’t like being lonely. At all, really.  In fact, I kind of hate it.   BUT, if loneliness was what it would take to know God , would I accept it?  Or would I hesitate , ask questions , try my own way?

“When I feel lonely, I am feeling powerful theological truth in my soul… Loneliness acts like a divine sticky note that says, ‘Don’t forget for whom you were made.’” (source)  

The same Jesus who gave up equality with God to become human, walk this broken earth, and die says that there’s a good reason to sign up for hardships: to gain something better.

“If any of you want to walk My path, you’re going to have to deny yourself. You’ll have to take up your cross every day and follow Me. If you try to avoid danger and risk, then you’ll lose everything. If you let go of your life and risk all for My sake, then your life will be rescued, healed, made whole and full.” (Luke 9:23-24)